end of the year

Today is December 31, 2008 the year is ending and sadly this time its ending on a very sad note for me....nin nan jothe illa and inyavathu iralla:-( i have decided to change my life completely from tom. I want to forget u but i know i will never ever be able to do that. i love u more than myself and its ur name i breathe so i can forget u only after i stop breathing...
u know something, i was in such a lovely place yesterday he was with me and u wont believe theres not been a single second i didnt think of u...u were there on my mind throughout...even when i am talking to him i was thinking abt u........pche i love u so much gotta!
U said it's all over and u dont want to even remember or talk abt the past but it has never been a thing of past what do i do? I have to live with a man whom i dont love forever in my life till my last breathe...
you said my decisions are not made by me and that is why u dont love me bt u know something i made this decision. It was me who decided to go back to him only after realising that nothing will work. we will not be able to convince my parents or him. I was sure i will not get divorced and he will ensure my life becomes as miserable as it get i was ready to face all this but not at ur cost.....i didnt want to trouble u....,may be u dont want to believe all this and u might laugh it out but i am being honest.
When i see u in office, my heart really skips a beat i will be all prepared to face u and i will be all convinced to forget u and talk to u just like a friend but.....it doesnt happen so....why....i dont know..... may be coz that's love!
I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU!!!!! WISH U A VERY VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR! MAY ALL UR DREAMS COME TRUE.............

would you?

If I wrote you love notes,

Scribed on withered autumn leaves,

With brilliant colours

Stolen from the rainbow,

And sent them to your doorstep,

By way of white doves…Would you too, fall in love with me then?

Just like I am, so much in love with you…

If I found the choicest words

And wrote you a love song,

Then called all the nightingales,

To compose a melody divine

And sang it to you, straight from the heart,

Under a cupola of dancing stars…

Would your heart too, beat just for me then?

Just like mine, beats solely for you…

If I painted, my endless love for you,

At the exact spot where,

The sunrays heave their last breath

So that, come eve, the skies would glow anew,

And proclaim to the universe,

Day after day, my love for you…Would you too then, want to spend your life with me?

Just like I wish to, spend the whole of mine with you…

i love you

Tonight I lie on this bed
With thoughts of you running all over my head …
A tear leaves the eye to kiss my ಚಿಕ್
As I feel a void between my arms which makes me more weak…
I am missing you More than leaf ever missed the dew …

Can I live with you for eternity?
Wait! Still I’ll fall short of time to show you how much I love you…
I close my eyes to see you and I drown into your love so ಡೀಪ್
Which brings a smile on my face…
but why one tear kissed my lip?
You are the only one who can make me smile when am ಕ್ರ್ಯಿಂಗ್
You are the only god I see … who made me alive when I was dying…

ನಾ ಒಂಟಿಯಾಗಿದ್ದರೆ
ಮುಂದೊಮ್ಮೆ ನೀ ಬಂದು
ನನ್ನ ಜೊತೆಯಾಗಲು ನಾ ಕವಿತೆಯಾಗಿ
ಅರಳಬಹುದೆಂದು ಕಾಯಬಹುದಿತ್ತು.
ಆದರೆ ನನ್ನೊಡನೆ ನೀನಿದ್ದೂ
ಇಲ್ಲದಂತಿರಲು, ನನ್ನೊಲವು
ಭಾವವಿದ್ದೂ ಶಬ್ದಗಳೇ ಸಿಗದೇ
ಮನದಲ್ಲೇ ಮರೆತುಹೋದ ಕವಿತೆಯಾಗಿತ್ತು.

ನೀ ಮೌನವಾಗಿದ್ದಿದ್ದರೆ
ಮುಂದೊಮ್ಮೆ ನಿನ್ನ ಮೌನ ಬಿರಿದು
ಮಾತು ಹೊರ ಬರಲು ನಿನ್ನ ದನಿಗೆ
ನಾ ದನಿಯಾಗಬಹುದೆಂದು ಕಾಯಬಹುದಿತ್ತು.
ಆದರೆ ನಿನ್ನ ಮಾತುಗಳೇ ಒಗಟು ಒಗಟಾಗಿ
ಅರ್ಥವಾಗದಾದಾಗ ನನ್ನ ಸ್ಥಿತಿ
ಹರಿವ ನೀರಲ್ಲಿಯೇ ಹುಟ್ಟು ಹಾಕಿ
ದೋಣಿ ನಡೆಸಲಾರದವ,
ಹೆಪ್ಪುಗಟ್ಟಿದನೀರ ಮುಂದೆ ನಿಂತ ಹಾಗಿತ್ತು .

ಕಟ್ಟಿದ್ದು ಕಾರ್ಮೋಡವಾಗಿದ್ದರೆ
ಮುಂದೊಮ್ಮೆ ಅದು ಕರಗಿ ನೀರಾಗಿ
ಸುರಿದು ಹೋಗಬಹುದೆಂದು ನಾ ಕಾಯಬಹುದಿತ್ತು.
ಆದರೆ ತಿಳಿನೀಲಿ ನಿಶ್ಚಲ ಬಾನೇ ನನ್ನ ಕಣ್ಣಿಗೆ ಅಡ್ಡಗಟ್ಟಿ
ನಮ್ಮಿಬ್ಬರ ಮನದ ನಡುವಿನ ಅಂತರವನ್ನು
ಅಳೆದಳೆದು ಸಾರಿ ಹೇಳುವಾಗ
ನಾನಾದರೂ ಏನು ಮಾಡಲು ಸಾಧ್ಯವಿತ್ತು ?