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u know radiodalli ondu hadu barta ide i loved it just felt like posting it here:

हज़ार रहे मुद के देखीं
कहीं से कोई सदा न आई
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई
जहाँ से तुम मोड़ मुद गए थे
ये मोड़ अब ही वहीँ पड़े हैं
हम अपने पैरों में जाने कितने
भंवर लपेटे हुए खड़े हैं
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई*
कहीं किसी रोज़ यूँ भी होता
हमारी हालत तुम्हारी होती
जो रात हमें गुज़री मरर के
वो रात तुमने गुज़री होती
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई*
तुम्हे ये जिद थी के हम बुलाते
हमें ये उम्मीद वो पुकारें
है नाम होटों पे अब भी लेकिन
आवाज़ में पड़ गई दरारें
हज़ार रहे मुद के देखीं
कहीं से कोई सदा न आई
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी .....

I love you dear! its been four days since i saw you i feel so wierd coz u dont seem to missme at all. this means everything abt me in u is over:-( i have accepted it dear and will definitely try not to hurt u by sending u stupid msgs, or bugging u with my stupid questions. l love u and will always do and only you:-) u r mine already now i dont care if u want me to be urs or not....i have decided not to expect anything in return from u. but i will always be there waiting for th one i love u sweetheart!
take care and good night chweetu
love u lot

happy valentine's day!

Hi sweetie pie.
Happy Valentine's Day! Belated! sorry i am writing it so late tried a lot to write it on 14th itself but I just couldnt. hey you know something today's air show visit was not sooooo bad as I told everbody, i badly wanted to say that I had a great time!
After our trip to Goa I had never spent a whole day with you....but on Valentine's Day I spent the whole day with my valentine! I wish I could spend the night too:-)
Hey that evening when u were sleeping in the bus I felt like hugging you and crying loudly! I wanted to tell u right there how much I love u how much I need u:-(
You are so good, I know I dont deserve u, i m not worth it but en madli i just cant forget it or ignore u, sweetu I miss u......
Hey, enila bidu..... happy valentine's day again andthank you so much for being with me and taking care of me so much! I love u again.
love,

I realised u dont need me anymore

Hi chinnu bangara,
sumne yako belige belige nin hatra matadbeku anstu adke call madide:-)ratri ella message madi madi thale tinde ansate alwa:-) sorry sorry.... hey u know something it suddenly struck to me this morning that u dont love me anymore, u dont think Iam urs anymore.....otherwise yesterday when I showed u my child hood pix atleast courtesygadru cute agide antide alwa:-) your reaction was so cold! I was so excitd to show u that pix but realised later, only this morning I shouldnt have.
Why am I expecting so much in return when I dont deserve all this? You have 100 why's for me and I have only one? Why did I love u and only you:-(
hey u r my life. you are the reason for me to breathe...............wish I had spoken to u atleast once before I made these decisions. I was so stupid that I thought it wil all be fine, u will be happy and I will be happy. uffffffffffffffff now ok ok bye
love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu tumba tumba tumba
Only yours

love u

Chinnu i have to tell u something honestly pls bejar madko beda ivatu i reallly wanted to hug u and kiss u....i was feeling so miserable also happy that I was seeing u afer 24 hours. hey, i love you tumba tumba tumba.... chinnu I will die without u.....everything i see around me reminds me of u...i am at amma mane iga and every corner of this room reminds me of u and the sweet moments we have had here:-( i wish those days were back.
And u know something my possessiveness for u is not coming down day by day its increasing i am worried about it:-( a small comment or a sweet talk u do with any girl is upsetting me too much...ok will write tom
i love you again
good night:-)

a msg which actually shook me up

Ufffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff..................... I am still breathing! What a msg it was! hey, this one msg of urs was enough for me to stop calling u, msging u, telling u how much i love u. I dont knw what made u say all this and for how many months u had actually wanted to tell it to me........But finally i made u say it...how could i have been so insensitive...just coz i loved u and love u how could I even think that u should also love me though we can never lead our lives together. what was on my mind?i had probably gone insane......but u know something....no u dont...i still love u and will love u. You are in me now there's no way out for me. My baby, yes, it is special but not for me. I am being honest. Now, this is th eonly place where i can talk to u. this blog is just for u and will always remain for u......if u ever want to know my feelings pls log on and read it coz only u know the id.....no one else.
I love u more than anyone...i am repeating anyone in this world and the other world too:-) i do respect ur words and it is for ur sake and only ur sake that i stopped saying i love u to u or i stpped getting mushy with u. I dont know why i am delivering its not mine and can never be mine...u know u might somedaylaugh it off but then for me our love was always serious and will be serious.....will never and can never think of not loving u.....nothing from my side will change within a month,nine months, a year or whatever till i die.
And here's the msg u sent: Hello u stop these mes'ges atleast for that kid, if not for my sake, u should respect that little one, at least it should get ur uncompromising love, hey dont feel bad.
huh! i dont know how many hours i have cried after this....i dont know how many times i have read nd reread thismsg...now i know it byheart:-)
take care honey. i love u again!
chetu