Dead in ur heart

ivatige ninge nan mele bari preeti alla nin olage nanu sattu tumba dinagale agogide anta gottaytu. nange jwara anta helid melu ondu phone madila, ondu msgalli hegidiya antanu kelilwala ninu:-( nan ashtond kettavla? hagadre nin yak nan jothe matadta idiya? only reason that I am ur colleague? if true then i dont want that kano...i will quit. i dont want that courtesy from u i dont want that formality from u.......i know i have lost u completely and I am dead forever. Hey, why I am I feeling so sucidal. why am i feeling so miserable. i am tired of crying kano...have been cryin throught the day ivatu i dont want to cry anymore.I will have to stop all this.....but one thing is for sure I love u and will love u till I die (hopefully death will come ASAP) ok all the best for ur life. bear with me for the next 45 days and thenafter that I will not bother u ever:-( I will even forget the FACT that I ever loved u:-( i hate myself i hate this world i am living in.....i hate everything abt everyone around me including myself:-(

good night i love you

Feeling so insulted

Hiiiii
yako gotilla manasu bhara bhara ansta ide chinnu:-( en gotta nin nanna eshtu avoid madta idiya,ignore madta idiya andre nange nan melene asaya ansak shuru agogide:-( feeling miserable. I think its high time I came out of this...ishtu dina i atleast had ths blog to express my feelings for u but nange itichege aa feelings bandrene asayya ansak shuru agide...on one side, I am trying to convince u to love me when i know there is no outcome of this relationship on the other I am trying to tell myself that I shouldnt be loving u and I should stop having feelings for u. At this stage of my life, I am so confused though I clearly know its only u and ur love that i want. I am so unlucky chinnu, I can never get u, i can never make u mine:-(.
Every time when u dont reply to my msgs I feel like killing myself, there have been many times i have even stood in front of the mirror and cursed myself for behaving like this.
Hey, sooner or later u will get married, u will have a wife, a family how will I face all that. I have decided I am not gonna come backto journalism, this break i am going to take will be the end of it. I cannot face u and I will never be able to work with u.
Every second i live in this constant insecurity. I am constantly worried abt u forgetting me. Everytime u get rude with me I feel u have lost all respect for me and look at me like one cheap.................. pche gotilla kano yako ivatu eneno ansta ide...belige i have cried for almost an hour, munche atleast if i cry i could immediatley call u and tell u that i cried but now i cannot even tell this to u....i dont even know if u remember there is one such blog in which i am pourin gout my feelings...i dont know if all this will have any effect on u. may be u dont even want to know. I know u r trying to come out of this relationship and come to terms with whatever i did to u....but why am i stuck here:-( whycant i just come out of this NOW. I feel so insulted, irritated, frustrated, depressed always, emotional fool........i am tired of this. my self esteem is being hit majorly , i am feeling like i have no self respect and I feel everyone around me is walking over me....its a miserable feeeling:-( i hate myself
good night
bye