Some strange feeling kano....
I dont know after a long long time i felt like wrritign somethng for u....tumba aloo barta ide ivatu sanje inda eno kasivisi. I dont know the exact reason, tale ella bhara bhara ansta ide...ello eno sari hogta illa ansta ide kano:-( i know its not true but yako i have a feeling u had gone to see some girl today.
May be i am wrong, i hope i am wrong but then some wierd feeling and its just upsetting me. i tried my best not to feel this way but i am so sorry i just couldnt help. I msgd all possible friends, spoke to everyone possible just to kill time but then u know for me looks like the world has stopped.
I need to learn to distance myself from u, i cannot go on like this. i have to let u free, let u move on but dear i dont know why i am getting so selfish. why do i want to keep u for myself, why do i stillbelieve that u love me and only me:-(
I should accept the fact and reality that u dont love me anymore wy am i not been able to accept thta...cant someone just put some sense into my dumb head:-(
ayyo nange jorag attu bidana ansta ide kano.....uffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff wish i just die this moment:-( good night and I LOVE YOU tumba...............................
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Dead in ur heart
ivatige ninge nan mele bari preeti alla nin olage nanu sattu tumba dinagale agogide anta gottaytu. nange jwara anta helid melu ondu phone madila, ondu msgalli hegidiya antanu kelilwala ninu:-( nan ashtond kettavla? hagadre nin yak nan jothe matadta idiya? only reason that I am ur colleague? if true then i dont want that kano...i will quit. i dont want that courtesy from u i dont want that formality from u.......i know i have lost u completely and I am dead forever. Hey, why I am I feeling so sucidal. why am i feeling so miserable. i am tired of crying kano...have been cryin throught the day ivatu i dont want to cry anymore.I will have to stop all this.....but one thing is for sure I love u and will love u till I die (hopefully death will come ASAP) ok all the best for ur life. bear with me for the next 45 days and thenafter that I will not bother u ever:-( I will even forget the FACT that I ever loved u:-( i hate myself i hate this world i am living in.....i hate everything abt everyone around me including myself:-(
good night i love you
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Feeling so insulted
Hiiiii
yako gotilla manasu bhara bhara ansta ide chinnu:-( en gotta nin nanna eshtu avoid madta idiya,ignore madta idiya andre nange nan melene asaya ansak shuru agogide:-( feeling miserable. I think its high time I came out of this...ishtu dina i atleast had ths blog to express my feelings for u but nange itichege aa feelings bandrene asayya ansak shuru agide...on one side, I am trying to convince u to love me when i know there is no outcome of this relationship on the other I am trying to tell myself that I shouldnt be loving u and I should stop having feelings for u. At this stage of my life, I am so confused though I clearly know its only u and ur love that i want. I am so unlucky chinnu, I can never get u, i can never make u mine:-(.
Every time when u dont reply to my msgs I feel like killing myself, there have been many times i have even stood in front of the mirror and cursed myself for behaving like this.
Hey, sooner or later u will get married, u will have a wife, a family how will I face all that. I have decided I am not gonna come backto journalism, this break i am going to take will be the end of it. I cannot face u and I will never be able to work with u.
Every second i live in this constant insecurity. I am constantly worried abt u forgetting me. Everytime u get rude with me I feel u have lost all respect for me and look at me like one cheap.................. pche gotilla kano yako ivatu eneno ansta ide...belige i have cried for almost an hour, munche atleast if i cry i could immediatley call u and tell u that i cried but now i cannot even tell this to u....i dont even know if u remember there is one such blog in which i am pourin gout my feelings...i dont know if all this will have any effect on u. may be u dont even want to know. I know u r trying to come out of this relationship and come to terms with whatever i did to u....but why am i stuck here:-( whycant i just come out of this NOW. I feel so insulted, irritated, frustrated, depressed always, emotional fool........i am tired of this. my self esteem is being hit majorly , i am feeling like i have no self respect and I feel everyone around me is walking over me....its a miserable feeeling:-( i hate myself
good night
bye
yako gotilla manasu bhara bhara ansta ide chinnu:-( en gotta nin nanna eshtu avoid madta idiya,ignore madta idiya andre nange nan melene asaya ansak shuru agogide:-( feeling miserable. I think its high time I came out of this...ishtu dina i atleast had ths blog to express my feelings for u but nange itichege aa feelings bandrene asayya ansak shuru agide...on one side, I am trying to convince u to love me when i know there is no outcome of this relationship on the other I am trying to tell myself that I shouldnt be loving u and I should stop having feelings for u. At this stage of my life, I am so confused though I clearly know its only u and ur love that i want. I am so unlucky chinnu, I can never get u, i can never make u mine:-(.
Every time when u dont reply to my msgs I feel like killing myself, there have been many times i have even stood in front of the mirror and cursed myself for behaving like this.
Hey, sooner or later u will get married, u will have a wife, a family how will I face all that. I have decided I am not gonna come backto journalism, this break i am going to take will be the end of it. I cannot face u and I will never be able to work with u.
Every second i live in this constant insecurity. I am constantly worried abt u forgetting me. Everytime u get rude with me I feel u have lost all respect for me and look at me like one cheap.................. pche gotilla kano yako ivatu eneno ansta ide...belige i have cried for almost an hour, munche atleast if i cry i could immediatley call u and tell u that i cried but now i cannot even tell this to u....i dont even know if u remember there is one such blog in which i am pourin gout my feelings...i dont know if all this will have any effect on u. may be u dont even want to know. I know u r trying to come out of this relationship and come to terms with whatever i did to u....but why am i stuck here:-( whycant i just come out of this NOW. I feel so insulted, irritated, frustrated, depressed always, emotional fool........i am tired of this. my self esteem is being hit majorly , i am feeling like i have no self respect and I feel everyone around me is walking over me....its a miserable feeeling:-( i hate myself
good night
bye
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
hamari thodi si bewafaai
u know radiodalli ondu hadu barta ide i loved it just felt like posting it here:
हज़ार रहे मुद के देखीं
कहीं से कोई सदा न आई
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई
जहाँ से तुम मोड़ मुद गए थे
ये मोड़ अब ही वहीँ पड़े हैं
हम अपने पैरों में जाने कितने
भंवर लपेटे हुए खड़े हैं
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई*
कहीं किसी रोज़ यूँ भी होता
हमारी हालत तुम्हारी होती
जो रात हमें गुज़री मरर के
वो रात तुमने गुज़री होती
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई*
तुम्हे ये जिद थी के हम बुलाते
हमें ये उम्मीद वो पुकारें
है नाम होटों पे अब भी लेकिन
आवाज़ में पड़ गई दरारें
हज़ार रहे मुद के देखीं
कहीं से कोई सदा न आई
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी .....
I love you dear! its been four days since i saw you i feel so wierd coz u dont seem to missme at all. this means everything abt me in u is over:-( i have accepted it dear and will definitely try not to hurt u by sending u stupid msgs, or bugging u with my stupid questions. l love u and will always do and only you:-) u r mine already now i dont care if u want me to be urs or not....i have decided not to expect anything in return from u. but i will always be there waiting for th one i love u sweetheart!
take care and good night chweetu
love u lot
हज़ार रहे मुद के देखीं
कहीं से कोई सदा न आई
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई
जहाँ से तुम मोड़ मुद गए थे
ये मोड़ अब ही वहीँ पड़े हैं
हम अपने पैरों में जाने कितने
भंवर लपेटे हुए खड़े हैं
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई*
कहीं किसी रोज़ यूँ भी होता
हमारी हालत तुम्हारी होती
जो रात हमें गुज़री मरर के
वो रात तुमने गुज़री होती
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी बेवफाई*
तुम्हे ये जिद थी के हम बुलाते
हमें ये उम्मीद वो पुकारें
है नाम होटों पे अब भी लेकिन
आवाज़ में पड़ गई दरारें
हज़ार रहे मुद के देखीं
कहीं से कोई सदा न आई
बड़ी वफ़ा से निभाई तुमने
हमारी थोडी सी .....
I love you dear! its been four days since i saw you i feel so wierd coz u dont seem to missme at all. this means everything abt me in u is over:-( i have accepted it dear and will definitely try not to hurt u by sending u stupid msgs, or bugging u with my stupid questions. l love u and will always do and only you:-) u r mine already now i dont care if u want me to be urs or not....i have decided not to expect anything in return from u. but i will always be there waiting for th one i love u sweetheart!
take care and good night chweetu
love u lot
Monday, February 16, 2009
happy valentine's day!
Hi sweetie pie.
Happy Valentine's Day! Belated! sorry i am writing it so late tried a lot to write it on 14th itself but I just couldnt. hey you know something today's air show visit was not sooooo bad as I told everbody, i badly wanted to say that I had a great time!
After our trip to Goa I had never spent a whole day with you....but on Valentine's Day I spent the whole day with my valentine! I wish I could spend the night too:-)
Hey that evening when u were sleeping in the bus I felt like hugging you and crying loudly! I wanted to tell u right there how much I love u how much I need u:-(
You are so good, I know I dont deserve u, i m not worth it but en madli i just cant forget it or ignore u, sweetu I miss u......
Hey, enila bidu..... happy valentine's day again andthank you so much for being with me and taking care of me so much! I love u again.
love,
Happy Valentine's Day! Belated! sorry i am writing it so late tried a lot to write it on 14th itself but I just couldnt. hey you know something today's air show visit was not sooooo bad as I told everbody, i badly wanted to say that I had a great time!
After our trip to Goa I had never spent a whole day with you....but on Valentine's Day I spent the whole day with my valentine! I wish I could spend the night too:-)
Hey that evening when u were sleeping in the bus I felt like hugging you and crying loudly! I wanted to tell u right there how much I love u how much I need u:-(
You are so good, I know I dont deserve u, i m not worth it but en madli i just cant forget it or ignore u, sweetu I miss u......
Hey, enila bidu..... happy valentine's day again andthank you so much for being with me and taking care of me so much! I love u again.
love,
Thursday, February 12, 2009
I realised u dont need me anymore
Hi chinnu bangara,
sumne yako belige belige nin hatra matadbeku anstu adke call madide:-)ratri ella message madi madi thale tinde ansate alwa:-) sorry sorry.... hey u know something it suddenly struck to me this morning that u dont love me anymore, u dont think Iam urs anymore.....otherwise yesterday when I showed u my child hood pix atleast courtesygadru cute agide antide alwa:-) your reaction was so cold! I was so excitd to show u that pix but realised later, only this morning I shouldnt have.
Why am I expecting so much in return when I dont deserve all this? You have 100 why's for me and I have only one? Why did I love u and only you:-(
hey u r my life. you are the reason for me to breathe...............wish I had spoken to u atleast once before I made these decisions. I was so stupid that I thought it wil all be fine, u will be happy and I will be happy. uffffffffffffffff now ok ok bye
love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu tumba tumba tumba
Only yours
sumne yako belige belige nin hatra matadbeku anstu adke call madide:-)ratri ella message madi madi thale tinde ansate alwa:-) sorry sorry.... hey u know something it suddenly struck to me this morning that u dont love me anymore, u dont think Iam urs anymore.....otherwise yesterday when I showed u my child hood pix atleast courtesygadru cute agide antide alwa:-) your reaction was so cold! I was so excitd to show u that pix but realised later, only this morning I shouldnt have.
Why am I expecting so much in return when I dont deserve all this? You have 100 why's for me and I have only one? Why did I love u and only you:-(
hey u r my life. you are the reason for me to breathe...............wish I had spoken to u atleast once before I made these decisions. I was so stupid that I thought it wil all be fine, u will be happy and I will be happy. uffffffffffffffff now ok ok bye
love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu tumba tumba tumba
Only yours
love u
Chinnu i have to tell u something honestly pls bejar madko beda ivatu i reallly wanted to hug u and kiss u....i was feeling so miserable also happy that I was seeing u afer 24 hours. hey, i love you tumba tumba tumba.... chinnu I will die without u.....everything i see around me reminds me of u...i am at amma mane iga and every corner of this room reminds me of u and the sweet moments we have had here:-( i wish those days were back.
And u know something my possessiveness for u is not coming down day by day its increasing i am worried about it:-( a small comment or a sweet talk u do with any girl is upsetting me too much...ok will write tom
i love you again
good night:-)
And u know something my possessiveness for u is not coming down day by day its increasing i am worried about it:-( a small comment or a sweet talk u do with any girl is upsetting me too much...ok will write tom
i love you again
good night:-)
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